rule #1

if you want to have happy confident children.
you might want to stop comparing them with other people's children.
when you compare (by compare i also mean criticize) YOUR children with other children, you are also comparing (criticizing) your own lineage, genetics, hereditary etc. you are actually criticizing YOURSELVES!

plus, you are NOT helping at all. if you want your children to be good or smart or pretty or clean or polite etc.. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO SHOULD BE EXEMPLARY!

but if you can't, all i'm saying is... embrace your roots, your genetics, your background; and especially when all that shows in your children. embrace them, love them for the persons they are. instead of telling them or make them feel that they are not (more like NEVER) good enough for you. because you are NOT perfect either. so..come on..
your children have the ability to LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY too. be nice to them., after all,.. YOU MADE THEM!!!

i wont

you can trash me up, beat me down, kick me in the gut, mess me emotionally
but
i am not giving up.
i wont give up on you
i wont give up on us
i wont give up on this world.
there is still a spark of hope for everything to be better and beautiful again
if you believe strongly enough.

nak tulis camni sebenarnya

"bisikku pada bulan
kembalikan temanku kekasihku syurgaku
tanpa dia malam menemanku
sepi memelukku
bulan jangan biar siang
biar alam ini kelam
biar ia sepi sepertiku..." (Khalil Gibran)



one day... i'll write something beautiful like this.~

keep breathing

biologically
you need air to live
to keep on living
you have to keep on breathing

no matter how smelly
no matter how dusty
the air can get
you can't stop breathing your air

you just have to keep on breathing
IF you want to keep on living

LIFE

living,
breathing
the indicator that you are a living thing.
alive
and kicking
is what they say.
exactly what it is about living?
you want to be a good servant to Him
and you are also built not strong enough to fight
needs
wants
lusts
desires
just plain, MORE
we will always want more.
and love...
sweet,sweet love.
what is it about love that makes you feel so alive?
one of the strongest reasons for anything
to live for
to die for.
LIFE, ya Allah...please enlighten me and set me free of this burden
may i be a good servant, amin